Wednesday, October 18, 2017

My Testimony

This sunday, Oct. 22 2017 I am going to get baptized. This is the testimony I will be giving in church from the baptismal waters. There are many details "missing" from this but I don't need to go into great detail to say that God is so very good. Also I can't exactly spend half an hour up there talking as the pastor still needs to give a sermon.

                I was blessed to grow up in a Christian home where the Bible was held up to be the word of God and I was taken to church my whole life. When I was 5 years old I was led through the sinners prayer. I was told that I was then a Christian. I was baptized at the age of 7. I remember very little of it but that it was what was to be done. I had no understanding of Christ being me Lord only that He was my savior from hell.  And even that was just something I knew because I was told it. Not because I understood.
From that time until 5 years ago I led a self-centered life. I believed myself to be a righteous person and that my works were good. There was no repentance in my heart. But as it says in Proverbs 30:12 “There are those who are clean in their own eyes but are not washed of their filth.” Every “good” work that I did was self-seeking.  I wanted to be seen and loved by mankind and to have the praises of man. My heart was deceived and full of wickedness. All I desired when reading Gods word was to have my selfish desires fulfilled. I read into the scripture my own thoughts and changed it in my mind to fit to my liking. I had built up a god in my own image. Just as Romans 1:22 says. “Professing themselves to be wise, they became fools.” I was a great fool.
Then 5 years ago I heard a sermon that caused my eyes to be opened. I was deaf and then I could hear, blind and I saw, dead and then brought to life. A heart of stone made new, into a heart of flesh. The word of God broke through and gave me a new life. Romans 5:6-11  “For while we were still weak, at the right time Christ died for the ungodly. 7 For one will scarcely die for a righteous person—though perhaps for a good person one would dare even to die— 8 but God shows his love for us in that while we were still sinners, Christ died for us. 9 Since, therefore, we have now been justified by his blood, much more shall we be saved by him from the wrath of God. 10 For if while we were enemies we were reconciled to God by the death of his Son, much more, now that we are reconciled, shall we be saved by his life. 11 More than that, we also rejoice in God through our Lord Jesus Christ, through whom we have now received reconciliation.” Not by works of my own but by Jesus death on the cross am I now saved.  
Since that day 5 years ago I have grown in my desire for God and His word. No longer seeking my own praises and glory but instead desiring to do all things to the glory of God. I am far from being faithful but He is proving to be faithful to me. Philippians 1:6 “And I am sure of this, That He who began a good work in me will bring it to completion at the day of Jesus Christ.” And so Today I wish to be baptized in obedience to His word. 

Thanks for reading this and rejoicing with me in all That God has done. I pray His name will be praised through my sharing this. Let His name be praised and Glorified forever and ever. 

Wednesday, October 19, 2016

August short post

This is a quick hello from August. The weather has turned and so have the leaves. In fact as I write this there are more on the ground than on the trees. We have had the hard frost that has turned the morning glories leaves into evenings old newspaper. The one that was hacked all to bits by the children and used by mom to clean the windows and maybe even put out for the dog. You get it. NOT pretty anymore.

But this is. This is nice.

And just as the summer brings you green beauty and fresh carrots. Fall brings you orange leaves and carrots with a touch of frost which turn out to better tasting than those fresh summer ones.

And I know from a trusted source (my sister-in-law) that bees will soon go into their winter huddle and hope they stored up enough food for the winter.

Sounds good to me. I think a winter huddle sounds like a pleasant thing to take part in. They will do no work but to survive with what they have stored up until next spring.

And we will go into the next year working on learning more about numbers and sentence structure. Maybe if I do enough teaching I will learn more too. This one is moving into grade 2/3. The beauty of homeschooling, take each subject at the level they are at.

And this one will continue to spend most of her time flitsing about from one thing to the next, though Lego is her long standing favorite. There will also be intermittent reading lessons and starting out with pencil to paper activities.

For something a little new here you might actually see a bit more of me as well. The older one is strong enough to hold up the camera and snap a few shots. Kind of fun and even more strange to be on the other side of the lens. Now I get why they act a little strange with that big black hole staring at them.

A view of Jade from Suzie's eye. We may see different faces from her with her sister behind the lens.

A picnic in the park. Not that long ago was a nice outing. Not that long from now it will be out of the question.

One more fun thing we are starting this year is piano for her. One month in and she loves it. Fun part is that we don't actually have a piano in the house. My brother and his wife have aloud us the daily use of theirs. Which means a daily walk, rain or shine, snow or sleet. I keep telling myself this will be a good thing. Force us out daily.

With Winter Coming around the corner there will be more dreaming of things to come and more little home comforts.

Suzie's view

Hope your summer was pleasant your fall a long one and your winter to come easy on the heart. And hoping you have a wonderful winter huddle.

Sunday, November 8, 2015

Thanks giving video

Just a little something I threw together after thanksgiving weekend. Hope you enjoy.

thanksgiving from Angie Kroeker on Vimeo.

Thursday, April 2, 2015

Robins come early

These pictures and videos were taken on March 27th. There are about 6 robins that were in the bush just outside our window. In the end though I counted about 10 all at one time. And that was not counting the ones in our neighbors yard. It was great fun to watch them.

The early return from Angie Kroeker on Vimeo.

I had never seen so many robins in one place at one time. This video explained that to me.

We are so looking forward to spring here. Can't wait for the snow to stop coming back. Till then here's to watching the birds even if they are suffering. Poor things.

Monday, February 23, 2015

Just some picturs I too awhile back.

I came across these two spending some time in the light of their bed room window. It begged for my camera to find them. And so here are my favorites from that day.

(This look makes me think of her dad. Just studying something, can't say what)

Sunday, February 22, 2015

Psalm 5

This psalm, again, is full of so much meaning. So rich with the longings of a heart broken and searching for God. As I have read from commentary, this psalm is to be broken into two parts. The first (vs.1-7) in which David calls to God to hear his prayers, to answer his cry, and the second (vs. 8-12) He retraces his request. In other words it is a psalm full of anguish in prayer.

 Spurgeons commentary is full, to over flowing with statements that make this psalm come alive. To even attempt to hint at what all this psalm is full of, I will not imagine to touch. But from his statements on just the first verse there is much to be gleaned.

Quote: " There are two sorts of prayers--Those expressed in words, and the un-uttered longings which abide as silent meditations. Words are not the essence but the garments of prayer."
"Yet the use of language may prevent distraction of mind, may assist the powers of the soul, and may excite devotion. David, we observe, uses both modes of prayer, and craves for the one a hearing, and for the other a consideration."
"'Consider my groaning.' If I have asked that which is right give it to me; if I have omitted to ask that which I most needed fill up the vacancy in my prayer."
Here I might add "If I have prayed in error please forgive me, and thank you that you do not give what I do not need or must not have."

Of course the commentary goes on from there but for now I will let the Psalm speak forth and be ever thankful for a God who hears our prayers.

Psalm 5
1. Give ear to my words, O Lord; consider my groaning.
2. Give attention to the sound of my cry, my King and my God, for to you do I pray.

3. O Lord, in the morning you hear my voice; in the morning I will prepare a sacrifice for you and watch.
4. For you are not a God who delights in wickedness; evil may not dwell with you.

5. The boastful shall not stand before your eyes; you hate all evil doers.
6. You destroy those who speak lies; the Lord abhors the bloodthirsty and deceitful man.

7. But I, through the abundance of your steadfast love, shall enter your house. I will bow down towards your holy temple in fear of you.
8. Lead me, O Lord, in righteousness because of my enemies; make your paths straight before me.

9. For there is no truth in their mouth; their inmost self is destruction; their throat is an open grave; they flatter with their tongue.
10.Make them bear their guilt, O God, let them fall by their own counsels; because of the abundance of their  transgressions cast them out, for they have rebelled against you.

11. But let all who take refuge in you rejoice; let them ever sing for joy, and spread your protection over them, that those who love your name may exult in you.
12. For you bless the righteous, O Lord; you cover him with favor as with a shield.

Tuesday, February 3, 2015

Psalm 4

 To the choirmaster: with stringed instruments, a psalm of David

1. Answer me when I call, O God of my righteousness! You have given me relief when I was in distress. Be gracious to me and hear my prayer!

2. O men, how long shall my honor be turned to shame? How long will you love vain words and seek after lies?

3. But know that the Lord has set apart the godly for himself; the Lord hears when I call to him.
4. Tremble and do not sin; ponder in your own hearts on your beds, and be silent.

5. Offer right sacrifices, and put your trust in the Lord.

6. There are many who say, "Who will show us some good? Lift up the light of your face upon us, O Lord"

7. You have put more joy in my heart than they have when their grain and wine abound.

8. In peace I will both lie down and sleep, for you alone, O Lord, make me dwell in safety.

I found this to be a more difficult psalm to put to memory. I find that when I do not fully understand, or cannot seem to find the common flow of a psalm it is more difficult to keep it. At first I did not find the verse that talks of the "many" to fit. It seemed to me that it was misplaced when the verse right after it talks about having more joy than they. I thought they were seeking after God how could that be a wrong thing? But when I looked into the commentaries on the scripture I have found that those who are saying "who will show us some good?" and "Lift up the light of your face upon us, O Lord" are actually in the wrong.
I will again quote Spurgeon on this for I have found that his "Treasury of David" commentaries are full of rich and clear statements. They have started to give me insights into the Psalms that I had not known before.

This is for verse 6, quote: "There were many, even among David's own followers, who wanted to see rather than to believe. Alas! this is the tendency of us all! Even the regenerate sometimes groan after the sense and the sight of prosperity, and are sad when darkness covers all good from view. As the worldlings, this is their unceasing cry. "who will show us any good?" Never satisfied, their gaping mouths are turned in every direction, their empty hearts are ready to drink in any fine delusion which impostors may invent; and when these fail, they soon yield to despair, and declare that there is no good thing in either heaven or earth. The true believer is a man of a very different mold. His face is not downward like the beasts', but upward like the angels'. He drinks not from the muddy pools of Mammon, but from the fountain of life above. The light of God's countenance is enough for him. This is his riches, his honor, his health, his ambition, his ease. Give him this, and he will ask no more. This is joy unspeakable, and full of glory. Oh, for more of the indwelling of the Holy spirit, that our fellowship with the Father and with his Son Jesus Christ may be constant and abiding!"

Indeed the Lord has put more Joy into our hearts as we look to Him and not the things of this world. It is Christ alone who gives us joy and Hope everlasting. To Him be the glory and praise forever and ever!!

 P.S. There is a great resource that I have come across where I have found all of Spurgeons treasury of David books for free.   Search under authors and you will find him there with many others as well. I have also found that there are free versions for download on mobile devices.
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